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Workouts: 5-10-09 to 5-16-09

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Another week down, next week will be harder with school starting up again and two of my days are later in the evening. Hoping to keep going at 5 days a week but we will see. I already messed up this week and took Sunday off forgetting that I needed to take Thursday/Friday off since I have work and school on Thursday and Friday is movie/regular night off.

School starts tomorrow for me, I am so not looking forward to that!

5-10-09, Sunday

Today was cardio day!

30m – Elliptical Crossramp, Crosstraining, Resistance 8
5m – Elliptical Crossramp, Cool down, Resistance 6
30m – Treadmill, Rolling Hills, 3.5mph, Level 12

Est. Cal Burn: 354 – Elliptical, 260 – Treadmill – 714 tota

5-11-09, Monday

Warm Up
12m – Elliptical Crossramp, Glute Trainer, Resistance 8

Workout

Seated Row – one regular pull & one laying pull = one rep/superset with chest press
12 @ 40#
10 @ 50#
8 @ 60#
10 @ 50#
12 @ 40#

Chest Press
12 @ 30#
10 @ 40#
8 @ 50#
10 @ 40#
12 @ 50#

5m – Treadmill, Incline Intervals, 3.3mph

12 @ 15# dumbbell – kickback, right arm
12 @ 15# dumbbell – kickback, left arm

12 @ 70# – Lat Pull

3 x 10 @ 25# – Lat Raises

Seated Dip
12 @ 60#
10 @ 70#
8 @ 80#
10 @ 70#
12 @ 60#

5m – Treadmill, Incline Intervals, 3.5mph

3 x 12 @ 8# medicine ball – back extensions
3 x 15 – incline sit ups

2 x 10 @ 5# dumb bells – shoulder arc
2 x 10 – ab wipers

9m – stairmaster, level 3, fat burner

and that was it… I ended with an asthma attack.

5-12-09, Tuesday

Rest Day!

5-13-09, Wednesday

Warm Up
10m – Elliptical Crossramp, Crosstrainer, Resistance 8
Stretching

Workout

Leg Press aka Darth Vader Shortener
15 @ 100# (warm up set)
12 @ 110#
10 @ 120#
8 @ 130#
10 @ 120#
12 @ 110#

Hip Adductions
15 @ 130#
12 @ 140#
10 @ 150#
12 @ 140#
15 @ 130#

Hip Abductions
15 @ 140#
12 @ 150#
10 @ 160#
12 @ 150#
15 @ 140#

Standing Calf Machine
2 x 12 @ 75# – Pigeon Toed
2 x 12 @ 75# – Duck Toed
2 x 12 @ 75# – Straight Toed

2 x 10 @ 75# – Glute Trainer, Right Leg
2 x 10 @ 75# – Glute Trainer, Left Leg

2 x 10 @ 15# dumbbells – lunges, right leg
2 x 10 @ 15# dumbbells – lunges, left leg

10 @ 15# dumbbells – deadlifts

Est. Time: 1 hour
Est. Cal Burn: 769

5-14-09, Thursday

Warm Up
10m – Elliptical, Level 2
Stretching

Work Out

Tricep Push Down w/ v bar superset with bicep curls
12 @ 30#
10 @ 40#
8 @ 50#
10 @ 40#
12 @ 30#

Bicep Curl w/ ezbar super set with tricep pushdown
12 @ 25#
10 @ 35#
8 @ 45#
10 @ 35#
12 @ 25#

10 – incline pushups, on the toes this time, no more knees if I can help it!

5m – Row machine

Hammer Strength – ISO, Lat Decline Press super set with pull downs, weight is per arm
12 @ 25#
10 @ 35#
8 @ 45#
10 @ 35#
12 @ 25#

Hammer Strength – ISO Lat Pull Downs Super set with Decline Press, weight is per arm
12 @ 25#
10 @ 35#
8 @ 45#
10 @ 35#
12 @ 25#

10 – incline pushups, on the toes

5m – Row machine

2 x 10 @ 8# medicine ball – Russian twists on stability ball
2 x 15 – crunches on medicine ball

Cardio
25m – Treadmill, 3.3mph, Random Inclines

Est. Time – 1h30m
Est. Cal Burned – 965

5-15-09, Friday

Warm Up
10m – Elliptical, Level 4
Stretching

Toning
3 x 12 @ 60# – laying leg curls
3 x 12 @ 65# – leg extensions
4 x 10 w/ 8# medicine ball – jacknifes
3 x 10 @ 0#, 6#,8# balls – back extensions
2 x 10 w/ 8# medicine ball – Russian twists on stability ball
20 – bridge w/ stability ball
10 @ 20seconds – wall sits

Cardio
12m – elliptical, level 3
20m – treadmill, random, 3.5mph
18m – treadmill, interval inclines, 3.0mph
2m – treadmill, flat, 2.1mph cool down

I’m tired and starving, have no clue on the cal burn. But I did get to see the cute boy at the gym tonight! Yeah!

5-16-09, Saturday

Rest Day!

Another plus to the week – down another 2 pounds. Very happy with that! Yeah!

Workouts 5-3-09 to 5-9-09

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5-3-09, Sunday

Warm Up
20m – Treadmill, 3.8mph, Random Inclines

Workout
3 x 15 @ 90# – Seated Leg Press
3 x 15 @ 60# – Seated Calf Press

Hip Abductions/Adductions
15 @ 125#
12 @ 135#
10 @ 145#
10 @ 145#
15 @ 125#

10m – Treadmill, 3.6mph, Interval Inclines

3 x 25 – Stability Ball Crunch
5 x 6 (each side) – Floor wipers

10m – Stairstepper, Level 3, Fat Burner

That was it – not a huge amount but something. Had a great day so far today. Its been really relaxing.

Est. Cals Burned: 961 (time around 1.5 hours) I took it slow…

5-4-09, Monday

32m on treadmill, 3.0mph, incline 12. Slow and steady and stopped when I started to get lightheaded.

Started getting sick this day

5-5-09, Tuesday

Home sick

5-6-09, Wednesday

Home Sick

5-7-09, Thursday

today was the 1st day back at the gym and I did pretty crappy.

Warm Up
10m – Treadmill, 3.5mph, Incline 3
Stretching

Workout
15 @ 85# – Seated Leg Press
8 x 20sec @ 90# – Seated Leg Press
3 x 10 @ 10# dumbbells in both hands – lunges, both legs

2m – Treadmill, 3.2mph, Incline 4

then I got dizzy and lightheaded – so I stopped. I will be going back tomorrow. Hopefully I won’t be spending the day feeling like I am going to pass out.

5-8-09, Friday

Pushed myself today… I am beat! But I am very happy with it!

Warm Up
10m – Treadmill, 3.8mph, Interval Inclines
Stretching

Workout

Bicep Curl w/ ez bar
25# – 12
35# – 10
45# – 8
35# – 10
25# – 12

Tricep Push Down w/ v-bar
25# – 12
35# – 10
45# – 8
35# – 10
25# – 12

3 x 15 @ 70# – Seated Row
3 x 12 @ 30# – Chest Press

5m – Treadmill, 3.8mph, 6incline

Hip Abductions
135# – 12
145# – 10
155# – 8
165# – 8
135# – 15

Hip Adductions
125# – 12
135# – 10
145# – 8
155# – 8
125# – 15

3 x 15 @ 8# medicine ball – back extensions
3 x 10 – Roman Chair w/ straight leg

5m – Treadmill, Intervals, 3.8mph

2 x 10 @ 10# dumbbells – lat raises

3 x 10 @ 8# medicine ball – jackknifes
25 – Bridge

10m – Stair stepper

I think there is more but I can’t remember.

Time – 1h15m
Est. Cals Burn – 850

5-9-09, Saturday

Warm Up
10m – Elliptical Crossramp, Glute Trainer, Resistance 8
Stretching

Work Out – lots of super sets

3 x 12 @ 50# – Laying Leg Curls
3 x 12 @ 55# – Leg Extensions

2 laps down the hall in the gym about 50 yards each way – running

5 x 10 @ 70# – Smith Squats
4 x 10 – Incline Push Ups (on my knees of course)

2 laps down the hall in the gym about 50 yards each way – running

15 x 15secs – Wall Seat Press? (with 15sec rest in between) where you sit against the wall and hold urself up, can’t remember the exact name)

10 – Reverse Crunches
2 x 15 – Bridge w/ Stability Ball
2 x 10 – Russian Mason Twists w/ 6# medicine ball

2 laps down the hall in the gym about 50 yards each way – running

2 x 15 – Bridge w/ Stability Ball
2 x 10 – Russian Mason Twists w/ 6# medicine ball
10 – leg raises

30m – Random Inclines, Treadmill, 3.0mph, 0 – 10 incline

Cool Down
2m – Cool down, Treadmill, 2.1mph, Flat surface
5m – Stretching

Believe it or not – that workout took me 2hours to do… it doesn’t seem like a helluva a lot from here but that was with some breaks to catch my breath and not throw up. During the squats/push ups I was dying.

Est. Cal Burn: 1360

I think the forced rest I have had these past two weeks have done me some good. I am feeling great. Sore but great. I had a ton of fun at the gym today playing with different things I have been afraid to do in the past.

Please note – you can follow me during my workouts on my twitter account! Its not a full blown account but I do post while working out and comments et al… http://twitter.com/varza

Workouts 4-26-09 to 5-2-09

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4-26-09, Sunday
Day Off – Study for Finals

4-27-09, Monday

this mornings workout – kept it short, had to get home to get ready for my final today.

Warm Up
12m – Glute Trainer, Elliptical Cross ramp, Resistance 7
Stretching

Toning

Inverted Leg Press
13 @ 90#
10 @ 100#
7 @ 110#
10 @ 100#
13 @ 90#

Seated Calf
3 x 15 @ 45# w/ 1 sec isometrics

the following were done on a new set of machines with a resistance cable
2 x 10 @ 30# – Fly
2 x 12 @ 30 # – Chest Press
2 x 12 @ 50# – Lat Pull
2 x 10 @ 30# – Fly
2 x 12 @ 50# – Lat Pull

had to stop all that due to my shoulder starting to act up. Only did the small reps due to my arms shaking so badly.

15 – back extensions
25 – incline sit ups

Cool Down
15m – Rolling Hills, Treadmill, 3.9mph

4-28-09, Tuesday

20m on the elliptical then overcome with emotions. stupid emotions

4-29-09, Wednesday

Day off….shoulder problems

4-30-09, Thursday

Day off – got a shot of cortizone in my shoulder, forced rest by doctor. Messed up rotator cuff

5-1-09, Friday

Day off – pain in shoulder horrible, still on forced rest by doctor

5-2-09, Saturday

Suppose to be resting still but went in anyway. 26min on the treadmill – that is all I lasted. My shoulder was really bad tonight. Hopefully with lack of stuff tonight and not working tomorrow I can get it rested. Will still go to the gym but now at least I have pain pills – I ran out last night.

Ended the week with a new weight loss – 213.6#

Workouts 4-19-09 to 4-25-09

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4-19-09, Sunday
Rest Day…

4-20-09, Monday

Warm Up
15m – Elliptical Cross Ramp, Glute Trainer 2, Resistance 7
Stretching

Toning
Hip Abductions/Adductions Pyramid same for both
18 @ 125#
15 @ 135#
12 @ 145#
15 @ 135#
18 @ 125#

Leg Press – Footing wide and high!
4 x 20 second sets @ 90#
4 x 20 second sets @ 85#

there was a 10 second rest inbetween sets… I was dying at the end!

Glute Machine
10 @ 50#
8 @ 65#
6 @ 70#
8 @ 65#
10 @ 50#

Standing Calf Machine
3 x 20 second sets @ 60#

I was gonna do 8 but just couldn’t do it at this point

3 rounds of the following
25 – Crunches on Stability Ball
12 on both legs @ 15# dumbbells – lunges
15 – Reverse Crunches w/ press

Cool Down
15m – Treadmill, Random Inclines, 3.5mph

And I ended my workout with a hug… yeah!

Est. Cals Burned: 878

4-21-09, Tuesday

Warm up
15m – Elliptical Crossramp, Resistance 7, Crosstraining Mode
Stretching

Toning
5 x 10 @ 190# counterweight – Chin Ups
5 x 10 @ 190# counterweight – Dips
3 x 15 @ 80# – Seated Row
1 x 15 @ 50# – Laying Leg Curl
3 x 15 @ 10# – Shoulder Press
3 x 10 – Back Extensions

Cardio Cool Down
15m – Treadmill, 3.5mph, Incline between 4 – 10

Est. Cal Burned: 815
Time: est 1h20m

4-22-09, Wednesday

Abs – 3 rounds of each
20 – reverse crunches
3 – 20sec planks
20 – floor wipers

Cardio
20m – Elliptical, Level 3, Resistance 2
40m – Treadmill, 3.6mph, INterval Inclines 0 to 10

4-23-09, Thursday

Day Off – Study for Finals

4-24-09, Friday

Day Off – Study for Finals

4-25-09, Saturday

Day Off – Study for Finals

Soooo… its been a few weeks…

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But, I am alive and somewhat well just hella busy with school, work and all that other crap that takes up like called: Darth Real Life. I have also been in kind of a funk. The stress of everything is getting to me and I have no real desire to do anything. Not even to count how the stress is affecting my diet… which is sucking the big one for the past few weeks. I am a stress eater… and I am lacking funds for healthy good foods so I am eating crap I shouldn’t be eating. And probably drinking too many protein shakes then are good for me.

I just want a week away from it all but my funds are so bad lately its really sad. My mortgage also went up and I am desperatly trying to find a way to refinance right now without any luck. I keep being told I have to come up with large down payments… if I had 5 grand in the bank do you really think I would need to refinance? Seriously… And its not my actual mortgage its the frakking property taxes that keep going up each year and upping my monthly payment. Right now I am paying almost 300 bucks a month into my escrow account that my mortgage company pays my taxes, insurance and all that other crap out of.

So, I will be hopefully making some more calls today and see if I can get into that program out there. I don’t regret buying my home. I love my home but I should of taken the 500 dollar loss and bought the townhouse I had been looking at. Smaller and was about 50 grand cheaper.

Just a tip for home buyers – your first year taxes are not permant rates. They will go up several hundred within a year or two. At least here in New Mexico. They didn’t tell me that when I bought my home, imagine my surprise when one month my payment was 800 and the next month 1,000. Not fun at all!

As for my diet and workout – I am stuck at anothe plateau and have been there for over a month now. I know part of it is my diet. part if my decreased cardio and part stress. I am tired of feeling defeated by trying to loose weight and not succeeding. I am still struggling over wanting to quit but I have to wait until when I get paid again but I need to quit “cheating” on my diet and just do it. In last months Oxygen there was an article on loosing 10lbs in a month. I think I am going to jumpstart my system with it starting next week after paying my bills. Its a hardcore diet and I will have to cut back majorily on my workouts so I don’t burn myself out. But with school ending in a few weeks, I think that the time I have to destress from classes before the next round is the best bet.

I need to do something I think and this is the only thing I can think of. Get rid of 10# and then go from there. This will also jumpstart me back onto the healthy regiment and hopefully get me off of the roller coaster of bad crap. And then afterwards I can start on the diet a friend gave me but we will see.

Speaking of school, only a few more weeks left. I have an A in my history class and a high C in my english class. I have a research paper due in both of them on Monday and I have been working on them. But probably not like I should be. Then again, I have always pressured myself to wait until the last minute on most of my papers. Always have… tried to change that and always start out early then meh. Just sit there staring at my moniter for hours on end.

But I just paid for the summer session with school, taking Anatomy & Physiology with a lab. Three days of classes. I was going to add on an algerbra class but decided against it. Its going to be hard enough especially since my nephew is in town again this summer. I will have to take it in the fall… I hate math with all my might. Seriously seriously hate it and wish I didn’t have to take it.

I did finally sign up for finanical aid for next year. Hopefully I will get it so I can have one less stress on my wallet. But I won’t know until the summer, I think. I haven’t heard anything from the school. Just the gov saying its been accepted and the info given to the school. They will let me know if I have been granted a grant. Wish me luck. I really need it. School is just too dang expensive – inexpensive but still. When you are living paycheck to paycheck… anything is alot on your budget.

AS for a major – still nothing. One of my friends said I should be a scholar and do religious/mythological studies. Since I already know a bunch and since I already read things then retell it in my own words – I am already being one. I find it funny… me a scholar? I barely graduated high school. But he thinks I would be really good with it. That I would be excellent at going around giving lectures and whatnot. Personally, I think it would be great but dang that would take me forever! But maybe… I will put it on the list.

I have had no time to even look for romance – incase you were wondering. I am trying to do the whole meet new people but everything costs money to do… and I save that for hanging out with people I already know. And I don’t get to do that often enough. I am starting to notice more and more guys around. Maybe my gym had a run of hot guys sign up at the gym – even though some of them have been around for awhile but I am just now noticing their cuteness since my crush has disappated.

So, I am keeping my eye open and making myself smile more if I see them smile at me, so we will see what happens. But I am pretty sure a guy was checking me out at the grocery store the other day… but hard to say… made eye contact a few times and he smiled. But then again – have had that happen before and it was just a guy being nice.

Okay, I think this is long enough… I will post my workouts from the past few weeks in the next day or so…

Also – I am on twitter… addicted to the damn thing I think: http://twitter.com/varza

Just Another Day

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Its another Friday and as per usual I am stuck at work. Its been a crazy week… really really crazy week.

I got my last paper back from my teacher in my Analytical Writing class… 98. I really have no clue how I am getting these grades. I never got grades like this back in the day. I know I talk about it alot but I am surprised. I was an below average student. I graduated high school with barely a 2.5 gpa and my only college choice was the local community college. Which I did a semester in before quitting.

Lets see what else… my past week was stressful for health concerns. I found a lump in my breast last week – after waiting a few days before calling the doctors to make sure it wasn’t just a swollen gland. But luckily, after going to the docs and my first ever mammogram – I am clean and cancer free. What it is is a cystic fiber – something or another. Basically a bunch of fibers that formed a cyst that will go away with lack of caffeine. And I have been drinking a lot of caffeine lately – which helps make these little buggers. But I didn’t tell the world until now because I didn’t want to have to contact everyone and say – hey I found a lump and then a week later say – oh it was nothing but a stupid cyst. But in truth, its still scary. I was stressed to the max and my mom tried to console me but it doesn’t always help. I just wanted to know.

I sold my kilt – it had gotten to big for me… I am using some of the money to buy new t-shirts because most of mine are now also too big for me. I can wear a large now – its tight and fitted but I think it looks good. I don’t really know. Guess I will find out when I get it in. I mean, I can’t buy babydolls yet but I prefer the mens style shirts anyways. Oh and the rest is to pay bills off… I always have bills to pay off.

My workouts have been kinda blah… I took Monday and Thursday off and part of me does not want to go to the gym tonight but just go to the movies right after work instead. But I will go and do something. I have no idea what but I have to do something. I am down another lb this week though. So, yeah! But psychologically I am utterly beat and don’t want to think about anything. But if I go today I can take Sunday off…

With work, stress about school, trying to find money for school and everything else – I just need to escape. And even though I love my Sims 2 – its just not doing it right now. I recently started playing again just to get away from my real world and into a fake world where I can control everything and give my fake people lots and lots of fake mulla and build them big houses!

But I got notice that my day for class sign up for the summer is coming up. I figured out which classes I am going to take during the summer session – a science and lab. We will see if I get into the anatomy and physiology class like I want to. I do need to spend sometime this weekend appliying for finanical aid and hope to the gods that I actually get it. I am afraid I may make too much and they don’t take into account that I have a hellasious mortgage but as always, we will just have to see.

I have some other things I want to talk about but will do that another day… I need to eat lunch.

Workouts this week – as per usually the m stands for minutes, # for pounds:

3-21-09, Saturday

Warm Up
10m – Treadmill, Interval Inclines, 2.5mph

Toning
3 x 15 @ 40# – Rear Delt
3 x 15 @ 60# – Fly
3 x 15 @ 125/120/115 – Hip Abductions
3 x 15 @ 125/120/115 – Hip Adductions

Cardio
25m – Elliptical Crossramp, Glute Trainer, Resistance 8

3-22-09, Sunday

Warm Up
10m – Treadmill, 3.8mph, Intervals
Stretching

Round 1
10 @ 40# + bar – Smith Machine Squats
10 @ 10# + bar – Laying Chest Press (free weights)
10 @ 180# counterweight – Chin Ups
10 @ 10# dumbbells – should press
30 – crunches w/ legs on stability ball and bicycle move
5m – treadmill, random inclines, 4.0mph

Round 2
10 @ 40# + bar – Smith Machine Squats
10 @ 10# + bar – Laying Chest Press (free weights)
10 @ 180# counterweight – Chin Ups
10 @ 10# dumbbells – lat raises
25 – jack knifes w/ 6# medicine ball
5m – treadmill, rolling hills, 4.0mph

Round 3
10 @ 50# + bar – Smith Machine Squats
10 @ 10# + bar – Laying Chest Press (free weights)
10 @ 180# counterweight – Chin Ups
30 – crunches w/ legs on stability ball and bicycle move
5m – treadmill, random inclines, 4.0mph

Round 4
10 @ 50# + bar – Smith Machine Squats
10 @ 10# +bar – Laying Chest Press (free weights)
10 @ 180# counterweight – Chin Ups
10 @ 10# dumbbells – lat raises
25 – jack knifes w/ 6# medicine ball
5m – treadmill, random inclines, 4.0mph

Round 5
10 @ 50# + bar – Smith Machine Squats
10 @ 10# + bar – Laying Chest Press (free weights)
10 @ 180# counterweight – Chin Ups
10 @ 10# dumbbells – should press
30 – crunches w/ legs on stability ball and bicycle move
15m – treadmill, intervals inclines, 3.5mph

3-24-09, Tuesday

20m – Elliptical Crossramp, Intervals, Resistance 8
Stretching
1 x 15 @ 55# – Leg Extensions
3 x 15 @ 55# – Leg Curls
3 x 15 @ 80# – Calf Machine
10m – Elliptical, Hill Intervals

yeah I know its really short but oh well, it was a long day. I had to go for some testing early yesturday morning and I was just beat.  This was the day I went for the mam.

3-25-09, Wednesday

Warm Up
10m – Treadmill, 3.5mph, Incline 5
Stretching

Workout
4 x 10 @ 60# – Smith Squats
4 x 12 @ bar only – underhanded row – freeweights
4 x 12 @ 10# weights – lat raises
1 x 15 @ 190# counterweight – chin ups
3 x 10 @ 190# counterweight – chin ups
4 x 12 @ 15# dumbbells – stability ball chest press
4 x 10 @ 20# barbell – curls
4 x 20 sec – curls
10 sec rest between each 20sec rep
4 x 20 sec – reverse crunches
10 sec rest between each 20sec rep

Workouts and A Realization

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Weighed in this morning – a solid 218 – a total loss of .8 lbs since last week.

I’ve been looking at my calorie intake vs my burn and I am wondering if I am not eating enough.

According to a calculator I just did I can eat :

Quote:
If you exercise for 60 minutes each day, you will be able to reach your goal weight with 2444.3 calories per day.

And according to the online food journal I use…

You should consume about 2250 calories a day to reach your goal weight of 195 lbs.

This is at a reasonable weight loss average of 1.5 lbs per week, which should be reached by July 05, 2009.

Remember that this estimate is based on your body weight, height, age, gender, and activity level. It may vary slightly depending on other factors.

I am averaging about 600 – 900 calorie burn per workout (avg of the course of the past 7 days), adding to my avg daily burning of 2790… that is about 3390 – 3690. I don’t even want to think about those days I burned 1500 cals during a workout and barely ate anything.

Intake wise… over the past 7 days I have avg about 1500 – 1900 calories per day.

Giving me a difference of 1790 – 1890 calories between my intake vs. burn. I have read that you should have more then 1200 calories difference?

I am wondering if I am not eating enough so when I have a cheat day all that extra is being held hostage by my body because it feels it is being starved? I think so. But we will see what happens. I will be talking to my trainer tonight and seeing what he thinks.

3-18-09 Workout

Warm Up
15mins – Treadmill 2.5mph incline intervals.
Stretching

Power Aerobics Class – basically:

Group Power is your hour of power! This 60 minute barbell program strengthens all your major muscles in an inspiring, motivating group environment with fantastic music and awesome instructors with simple, athletic movements such as squats, lunges, presses and curls, Group Power is for all ages and fitness levels. Discover results, discover Group Power!

3-19-09 Workout

20mins – Elliptical Crossramp, Resistance 7, Cross Training – lots of leg work.
3 x 15 @ 80# – Calf Machine
3mins – Intervals, Incline 5, 3.5 & 4.8 (this is when I realized I forgot to do my inhaler before workout and couldn’t breathe. d’oh!)
17mins – Treadmill, Incline 5, 3.5mph

Thats about it. My body is still really sore from the power workout. Today is my rest day. Back to the gym on Saturday for more fun and games!

Nothing much else, getting ready to set an appointment to get my hair done. I’ll post a pic of it when I get done being made pertty…

More Workouts and Fears…

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Okay, so I know I didn’t post my last few workouts but things have been a bit crazy health wise. Seems like my body is wanting for me to not complete this mission and I had a horrible disappointment when we did my body fat measurements and found out I went 0.8% in the last three months. I am suppose to be going DOWN not UP! So it will soon be time for a complete overhaul of my workouts…

Its even sadder since I have increased my cardio in the past few months even though there have been struggles with side stitches, cramps, pulled muscles, etc. So, obviously I am not getting the best workout I need to. And a complete and total frustration I might add. I did spend a good portion of my Wednesday even in tears and fighting my desire to just quit. I’m not going to but its hard not to. There is a very loud voice in my head that seems to want me to find reasons to fail and screaming very very loudly for me to to do just that.

I have been posting on my 300 boards about this and one of my wonderful friends over there linked me to an article about muscle catabolism… when you have more negative than positive agents working in your system. Seeing as I haven’t been sleeping well for the last few months and my stress levels are uber high with being constantly on the go… my brain is working against me in so many ways.

I spoke with my trainer – well texted cause I was crying and couldn’t talk. We will be sitting down and making a workout program for me to follow to get the best workout possible. I am tired of failing at things in life – seriously failing. I have failed in pretty much every way you can imagine but I do not want to fail in this one.

Its hard though because there are a lot of workouts I want to do but I don’t because I either don’t want to look foolish in front of complete strangers, am afraid to do them alone because I don’t know what I am doing or am unsure of myself. Next to my sense of failure this sense of just being unsure is excruciating. I don’t like asking for help and I should, I just don’t. This is something I have had to deal with my entire life. I just need to maybe write on something “Fortune Favors the Bold” and just realize, I’m not the only one out there feeling this way. Seriously, some workout magazine needs to do an article on overcoming your fears at the gym. Its hard.

So, I will no longer be doing 15 reps but more sets at 12 reps each, and 3 or 2 sets where I need to. Here are my workouts from the last few days (please not that the use of a number w m behind it is minutes, not miles and my way of recording is 2 x 12 @ 60# – is 2 sets of 12 reps at 60 pounds. If I adjust the weight during my sets I don’t put a # there at all…)

3.10.09 Workout:
16m – intervals, 1m walk, 1m run
had to stop and stretch my hip, it killing me like crazy right now. As is my knee.
15m – walking, 3.5, incline 3

3.11.09 Workout:

Warm Up
12m – Elliptical Crossramp, Crosttrainer, Resistance 6
Stretching

Workout
20 @ 40 – ISO Lat Chest Press
10 @ 60 – ISO Lat Chest Press
12 @ 50 – ISO Lat Chest Press
15 @ 40 – ISO Lat Chest Press
20 @ 30 – ISO Lat Chest Press
2 x 12 – Kettle bell raise with dumbbell, right arm
2 x 12 – Kettle bell raise with dumbbell, left arm
15 – push ups on knees at incline
10 – push ups on knees on floor
3 x 12 @ 15 – bicep curls
3 x 12 @ 30 – tricep curls
1 x 15 @ 10 – bicep curl
1 x 15 @ 15 – bicep curl
2 x 20 – Jack knives with 5# medicine ball

that was it… my shoulder gave on me during the push ups on the floor. no cardio either because my hip, knees and calves were still hurting from yesterday.

3.12.09 Workout:

Warm Up
11m – Elliptical Crossramp, Interval, Resistance 8
lots and lots and lots and lots of stretching

Toning – each pair I went back and forth with one set with one then a set on the other, back and forth
4x 12 @ 60# – Seated Row
4 x 12 @ 35# – Chest Press

3 x 12 @ 70# – Lat Pulls
2 x 12 @ 25# – Lat Raises

25 – Stability Ball Crunches

4 x 12 @ 95/100/95/90 – Seated Leg Press, Feet placed high to get a more back of the leg workout
3 x 12 @ 75/80/75/70 – Seated Calf Press (this one hurt like the dickens but I wanted to get SOME leg work in today)

75 – Stability Ball Crunches (15 w/ 5# medicine ball)

20 – Incline Mason Twists w/ 5# Medicine Ball

That is it. It is Friday and Fridays are my days off from working out. I am going out for the evening and hope to relax some before heading into work tomorrow morning.

Weight Loss Woes

/ Varza / 3 Comments

I am damned sexy and any man would be lucky to have me! I know its true, you know its true… so why don’t guys figure that out until its too late? Seriously, they do. Damn them all! lol…

But none of that today. Today is just a general post about my working out and possibly some school stuff, since that started this week.

I have been working on losing weight for about 8 months now and it has been a hard ass struggle so far. On average I should be able to lose about 2 lbs a week, I am averaging about 5lbs per month. On the whole I have lost about 40lbs and mky weight just struggles and struggles to come off and it is a bit tiring. Its hard to like yourself when you hear how fast people are loosing weight and how easy it is for them. Hence, why I have stopped watching infomercials. Those things can be killer on your self-esteem. I lost 40lbs in 8 weeks!

I know I have lost weight and dress, shirt and pants sizes. I am down about 3 sizes now, maybe 4. I work my ass off at the gym each time I go. Okay maybe 98% of the time I go but I am starting to get frustrated. I do ab work every time I see no real changes there. It looks in the same shape. I work and it hurts but in the morning or a few hours there is no pain. So, the question is – am I working out hard enough. How can I know?

I know my trainer has been pushing me and says I am doing great but I don’t feel that way. If I had done as well as I could I would be under 200# by now. Is it because I am not starving myself with my diet. Eating small portions and not always getting the salad at dinner and order a hamburger cause that is what I am hungry for. I refuse to do that and maybe that is my problem. I satisfy my cravings. Now, I don’t go gung how and eat an entire container of ice cream in a siting. Heck I haven’t had ice cream in over a month.  And its not easy but I do it. I don’t eat as many carbs as I want but I still eat like a normal non-dieting person. Not alot, I stay within my calorie margin I believe and watch what I put into my mouth. I eat a lot of salads.

Why won’t I crash diet? Well, basically I want to be able to continue to eat normal and still loose weight. So that when I get to my goal I will be able to eat a normal diet and not gain it all back. Its hard and yes, it is meaning slower results but I am looking in the long run. I have done weight watchers and Jenny Craig but I have failed on both of them. Big time and ended up gaining all the weight back plus more in the end.

But what I would really like to do is go to the doctors and see if there is anything medically that needs attention. I have a feeling I may have a disorder that is part of the reason I gained weight (other then the major snacking and crap eating) as fast as I did and part of why its coming off slowly.

I trust my trainer. He knows what I eat and he doesn’t think I am doing anything wrong. He sees what I eat when I go out to dinner and usually gives me an okay on certain foods. Yes, I do text him when I am out from time to time to discuss my options. He is a good trainer and friend.

So where am I now? Well, heavier then I want to be but getting there. I don’t want to take an entire year from now to loose the last 70lbs to my goal. So what do I need to do? not change my diet… but increase my cardio during my workouts. Not take a day off of cardio just because I am tired and don’t want to even if I have time, like I did last night. But go ahead and do it.

Why won’t I diet more? Well, I like food. I like to eat out. I don’t like to deprive myself of things that bring me joy in life when I can adjust a little – like going protein style on a really goodd burger instead of not having the burger at all? Not having fries but having a salad and stealing one from my friends plate during dinner if I feel the need for one.

Am I succeeding, yes? Yes I am and in my own long ass hard way. I am stubborn what can I say and it seems that my body took up my mentality. 😀

Dang it all!

/ Varza / 1 Comment

So, half the weight I lost after going back to the pool is pretty much back. To my utter frustration and contempt of my body. I have increased my workouts and I don’t know what else to do… I am stuck in this rut between certain weights and I am fluctuating like crazy and its pissing me off.

I am going on a cruise in just over 4 months and I want to be down 60 more pounds by then and I don’t think I can do it. I have been at this for 4 months already and I have barely lost 30lbs in all that time. I want to loose 3 – 4lbs a week… I am loosing inches – I am down another dress size but I still don’t feel like I am making any headway what so ever on this.

I don’t know what else to do… I am barely eating 1500 – 1700 cals a day and that is with working out. I guess my biggest hurdle is the carbs and cheese/fats. I love them. I can’t help it. My latest trainer has told me to not eat any complex carbs after 7:30pm and I did okay for about 2 days then last night I broke down and had a bowl of cereal and a glass of OJ about 30 minutes before bed. Not good, not good at all.

I have no idea how to get it into this stubborn, bull head brain of mine to change. The only thing I can think of is to start increasing my works ontop of the cutting of the carbs – which I will not cut out just cut back – I am just tired! Tired of being fat and not making headway. I am not used to this with my body. It used to respond quickly and I would see changes a lot faster.

My old trainer stated the other day when I was talking to him that things will start happening soon and I will start seeing more and more changes faster then I was before. But how far away is soon? I mean I am seeing changes already but not enough to not make me frustrated at myself.