Weight Loss Woes

I am damned sexy and any man would be lucky to have me! I know its true, you know its true… so why don’t guys figure that out until its too late? Seriously, they do. Damn them all! lol…

But none of that today. Today is just a general post about my working out and possibly some school stuff, since that started this week.

I have been working on losing weight for about 8 months now and it has been a hard ass struggle so far. On average I should be able to lose about 2 lbs a week, I am averaging about 5lbs per month. On the whole I have lost about 40lbs and mky weight just struggles and struggles to come off and it is a bit tiring. Its hard to like yourself when you hear how fast people are loosing weight and how easy it is for them. Hence, why I have stopped watching infomercials. Those things can be killer on your self-esteem. I lost 40lbs in 8 weeks!

I know I have lost weight and dress, shirt and pants sizes. I am down about 3 sizes now, maybe 4. I work my ass off at the gym each time I go. Okay maybe 98% of the time I go but I am starting to get frustrated. I do ab work every time I see no real changes there. It looks in the same shape. I work and it hurts but in the morning or a few hours there is no pain. So, the question is – am I working out hard enough. How can I know?

I know my trainer has been pushing me and says I am doing great but I don’t feel that way. If I had done as well as I could I would be under 200# by now. Is it because I am not starving myself with my diet. Eating small portions and not always getting the salad at dinner and order a hamburger cause that is what I am hungry for. I refuse to do that and maybe that is my problem. I satisfy my cravings. Now, I don’t go gung how and eat an entire container of ice cream in a siting. Heck I haven’t had ice cream in over a month.  And its not easy but I do it. I don’t eat as many carbs as I want but I still eat like a normal non-dieting person. Not alot, I stay within my calorie margin I believe and watch what I put into my mouth. I eat a lot of salads.

Why won’t I crash diet? Well, basically I want to be able to continue to eat normal and still loose weight. So that when I get to my goal I will be able to eat a normal diet and not gain it all back. Its hard and yes, it is meaning slower results but I am looking in the long run. I have done weight watchers and Jenny Craig but I have failed on both of them. Big time and ended up gaining all the weight back plus more in the end.

But what I would really like to do is go to the doctors and see if there is anything medically that needs attention. I have a feeling I may have a disorder that is part of the reason I gained weight (other then the major snacking and crap eating) as fast as I did and part of why its coming off slowly.

I trust my trainer. He knows what I eat and he doesn’t think I am doing anything wrong. He sees what I eat when I go out to dinner and usually gives me an okay on certain foods. Yes, I do text him when I am out from time to time to discuss my options. He is a good trainer and friend.

So where am I now? Well, heavier then I want to be but getting there. I don’t want to take an entire year from now to loose the last 70lbs to my goal. So what do I need to do? not change my diet… but increase my cardio during my workouts. Not take a day off of cardio just because I am tired and don’t want to even if I have time, like I did last night. But go ahead and do it.

Why won’t I diet more? Well, I like food. I like to eat out. I don’t like to deprive myself of things that bring me joy in life when I can adjust a little – like going protein style on a really goodd burger instead of not having the burger at all? Not having fries but having a salad and stealing one from my friends plate during dinner if I feel the need for one.

Am I succeeding, yes? Yes I am and in my own long ass hard way. I am stubborn what can I say and it seems that my body took up my mentality. 😀

3 thoughts on “Weight Loss Woes

  1. 5 pounds a month is nothing to sneeze at. I realize it is frustrating but if you look at people who lose 40lbs in 8 weeks they usually have put it back on plus 10 more pounds.

    One thing is to make sure you are eating enough. I know that sounds strange but if you are eating less than you should be your body goes into “survival” mode and holds onto weight. That is why starving people have bloated stomachs.

    Also, are you drinking enough water? Water moves wastes and helps cleanse the system.

    Another thing I learned at the health club I used to work at was sometimes people work out at too high a level and they are burning muscle, not fat (working anaerobically).

    Sorry to leave such a long comment that is advice oriented. I know that boat you are in. I’m struggling too and it seems I take 1 step forward and 10 pounds back. :-\

  2. I made some posts about dieting on my site that may help you. I followed a book, ate almost no fat, and walked a lot (25 – 30 miles a week).

    Nothing against your Trainer, but it is not in your Trainer’s best interest for you to achieve your goal. You get to your goal, and your Trainer loses $$.

    With all said, your are dropping a pound a week, and that is reasonable to good. We are all different, and that may be right for you.


  3. I know you have heard this all before but I still have to say it. Slow weight loss is more likely to stay off than quick weight loss. Having gone through gadzillion diets in my life where rapid weight loss was followed by not just rapid gain but gaining more than what was loss, I know this to be true. Having said that I also know there are few things more satisfying than seeing the pounds melt away. Ask yourself the question “Am I better off physically then I was a year ago?” If the answer yes then keep doing what you are doing and let the fools who put excessive strain on their hearts and other organs do the see saw thing.


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